Monday, November 11, 2013

Christmas on the horizon

Yup... Christmas is coming up. For some people it is "AGAIN? Cmoon....it is all the same every year!!!" For others it is "Oh, wooow... Uh,Ah...cant wait and counting the days the whole year ahead". Some just can see few free days, and for others it is another alive hell staying in the kitchen for days...And for some it is a special warm and cozy day. Time rich of feelings and spent with the family... So...where is the truth? Which is the right answer, if there is such? Isn't it Christmas a simple ordinary day like the rest 364? Yeah, yeah...i have heard that before...
I
don't think there is right or wrong answer. When i was a kid i simply loved it. I cannot remember another time of the year which was so beautiful and special, full of pure Magic, expectation, enthusiasm, hope, love, warmth, couzyness.... I could see not only the snow drops that were coming down, i could see the magical dust under the green tree... I could smell the beauty of the winter, to touch the cold air with all my sense, dive into the big snow cover, to sink into the beautiful Christmas songs and ... to believe and live fully with the perfectly beautifully designed idea of the white-beared-old man, coming from far faaar away through the chimney that we didn't have at home, just to represent with his presents that i was a good girl through the whole past year... Super cute, yeah. But slowly and gradually with years passing by this Beauty was gone. Oh yeah, Christmas = (means) overeating, over drinking and overlazying around, staying at home with the family and that's that. Nothing more, nothing so special. I even went further.... When i was 17 had the "opportunity" to spend Christmas in a hospital....Well....since then for the next 2-3 years more than sure i simply hated Christmas. Then i just relayed that everything is overexposed. There is such a boom of everything- advertisements, shops. Everything is green and red, shiny and glittery. And so what? For me it was jet another passing day like the rest nothing more, nothing special. I simply hated the idea of being too excited about something that was not real, not exciting at all. Just because Coca-cola had such a great ad campaign couple of decades ago and made the whole world believe that this very good and generous old man with white beard, wearing red clothes "is real"!!!
When i was having these kinds of thoughts i was just wondering "What is happening with me? Why i cannot see again the purity of the moment and smell the Spirit? Where did all the magic dissolved, like never ever has existed? If i had never experienced this powerful Beauty when i was a kid, i would never be having this doubts, but still..." The only one reasonable answer flowing into my head was "Maybe you are really growing up. There is no magic at all. Grown people don't see it. Because it doesn't exist. It was all a holly lie that was making kids feel special. Thats all!" And i let myself live with this kind of thoughts for maybe 2-3 years. But this questions didn't let me be ok with my own decision.
 And.... i don't remember how and what happened but... my attitude has changed once more... And it is still with me. This time i believe fully and with the whole my heart. This time not in Santa Claus, but in Miracles and Magic. I feel and know that these things can happen if you just let them. And there is no need for reasons like Christmas so they can happen. Yes, Christmas is the day just like the rest. But all the rest days are not less special than Christmas itself. It is the same right? Just a a point of view, which needed to be switched a bit. Just a bit. Well...this bit for me needed to happen just for a couple of years...Hanging from one extreme to the other just to find my truth. Because i celebrate every day. Every moment. Because there is no need to wait for this one particular day in the year to smile. There is no need to wait for that day to wish your dear ones something from the heart, to share your love and show your care. There is no need to wait for a big particular reason to enjoy the meal, you can prepare your daily food with care and respect ; to enjoy the company of your family and friends; to wait for the special days to wear your most favorite clothes. Just put them on and feel great because you deserve it. Today. Not in 362 days and 6 hours. There is no more special tea than the one you share with your dear ones. There is no more special cake than the one you are enjoying fully, melting and feeling each and every bit of it... There is no more special sunrise than the one coming up this morning... Because this is the one which is in your hands now. This are the cards in your hands now and the way you play now depends the way you will feel. It is everything else but not about advertisements, Coca-cola, super big shopping malls, Santa Claus or whatever.... It is never about the others. It is about you. It is all about the way you feel in your own skin in your daily life. It is about the way you walk in the same old streets you pass by every and every day, but with your smile. It is about finding the strength to find again and again your enthusiasm, your inspiration in-between the dusty streets and cloudy sky. To be able to smile from your heart and to enjoy. To be happy and free. To walk with that confidence that you are on the right place at the right time and just the best is coming your way. To believe that this world is so big to  make you scared and afraid that you will be fooled, but that it is big enough and has so much to offer and give you. You never know which opportunity is up in the next corner. You never know who is waiting to give you a hand. Don't be scared to try new things and explore new worlds. And if you fall down, just get up and move on. No need of getting stuck and digging into the whole and making it bigger. Jump up and go on. You don't know how beautiful the view could be 100 meters away if you don't move... Just give a try. Fill your heart with this pure faith and enthusiasm. Explore day by day the beauty of this big big world and enjoy its magic. Because it is real. It is here. Just need space. And it is all up to you. To make it happen. To let it happen. And not only from Christmas till New Year. Most important is from New Year till Christmas...

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